Fixated      

                                                                                            10/23/07
Once i longed for the hymn of your breath,
the light stitched into your smile,
the beauty within your intent's mystery.
Once i longed for the life beating in the heart of your laughter.
and the enjoyment of your company, in company of mine.
Once i longed for your thoughts of depth
to dig deep into this angel's mind.
Once i longed for your warmth & now
hypnotized, i am parlyzed inside.
Once i longed only for your love,
to pulse through the veins wired within me.
Once so cold, bitter & at negative mercy, dead veins now awakening.
Once i longed pathetic for attention & possesions
I longed for a single simple accepting embrace...
Now i long for love,
I long for the day i recieve an unjudging eyes gaze
without their piercing further,
deepening wounds of former personal conformist opinion.
Once i longed for wants instead of needs
To now cast aside longings & molding come Obsessions...
Dependances...
Cravings...upon which do i fall into crashing.
Craving the need for your precious unguarded smiles
Craving the coaxing of possiblities fate for unstable hope of tomorrow.
Craving dreams to slip within, only to remain, stolen moments.
Craving my fixated need for the oxygen
Reaching your lungs, as if to rescue you.
For upon breath in you,breath in me dotes...
Flooded by dependacies of my heart to dwell in it's longings,
Reside do i, in memories to remain my secrets of only now
what lyes as the gone & past...

10/23/07
E.Renfroe